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im a hypocrite. because i said i wasnt going to bitch anymore, and told my friends to look up, when i cant myself... i tried praying today... im an athiest, but if theres any chance. any at all.. that theres a higher being.. i need their help. just.. please.   in my mind, ive killed myself at least 8 times. i have the gun with me, but i cant. i CANT. not to mention my parents would screw the funeral up.. i have it all planned.. unfinished walnut coffin, olive green satin lining, if i die young as music, pale pink dress.. i cant talk to anyone about this.. at all. theyd run away... i have 2 particular people in mind, but they.. just no. they

so who wants to pillage a town with me? :D its full of a**holes and sluts so theres really no loss ^^ haha but youknow, im over it. ^^  im done being a ranty bitch~ so does anyone need some help? ill talk, listen, do whatever. just inbox me and ill do my best. and btw if you havent heard of this site... go to it. now. its called givesmehope.com :aww:   its basically people sharing their stories.. this was the first one i saw: Today, I told my best friend Julianne I'm gay. I expected her never talk to me again, but instead, she grabbed her purse and exclaimed, "Oh thank God! Now I can go shopping with a boy and it won't be awkward!" Her a

wow. today was pretty eventful. so my friend irene had to stay after shcool to work on this art thing, and i stayed with her to keep her company, and so unexpected stuff happened. first off i kind of vented out everything  that was bothering me at the moment, and we shared our... specific... opinions on certain people.. -_-   but then.... somehow we got on to the topic of guys or something, and i mentioned i liked someone. she guessed who it was and i was just kind of like "...maybe" damn. then i just kind of told her everything.. :P but she was SO helpful. like seriously, i should have told her forever ago. because she actually offered some